CML

[RavingRabbit]

The only one good thing is, that i pay for it, not a other one.....
.....if it became true.

what about all those you leave behind? your friends, your family, your girlfriend?

.........and if somebody ask me the "Why" question, then i can only say its not the time now to give an answer, nobody would understand that!!!

that might be true. but you also have to understand that these people worry about you and that is why they are asking questions.


I know this is very hard to try to explain such things to someone else. As you said, most wouldnt understand. But i think if you try, one of your closest friends will understand. they know you for a really long time probably. but i think you should let them know yourself a little bit better.

because if someone gets to understand your thoughts about these serious and important decisions, he/she could give you alot better support and strength which you could obviously need very much.


my advice is dont separate yourself from your friends and family because they dont understand your thoughts. try to help them understand. try to help them support you. im sure they are willing to try to understand if you only let them.


anyway, i wish you all the luck you can get and lets hope that "thin ice" stays frosty for a very long time to come!

cheers
wabbit

ps: this post might contain some critism. it is NOT my goal to offend you in any way! this is just my very own opinion about the last posts you wrote and im trying to give you a good advice.
also my english might not be the best, thanks for your understanding.

[Marwin]

I think with your post Raving Rabbit everyone realized that is not only just a game, and i am thankful of your opinion, and this post is very well wroten!

I will write an answer to that post Rabbit, but i need time.
Thats the keypoints with keywords.

I will put 2 words here:
Truth
Trust



Marwin

[}TCP{Coco]

50 days is awesome, Marwin! Let's hope you'll prove all stats wrong!

[Marwin]

50 days is awesome, Marwin! Let's hope you'll prove all stats wrong!

I respect your hope Coco, and thanks that i am not allone, but tbh.......
.....to prove all stats wrong would be a real wonder.


.......but nobody should never exclude tiny likelihoods.



Marwin

[}TCP{Coco]

Exactly. The best thing obviously is not to lose faith. But that's easy to say from my point of view, I suppose. In any case, I think you're doing great so far, Marwin!

[Marwin]

So, you trust me Coco, that my decisions what i made and will make are ok for me, even its a wrong one?

[}TCP{Coco]

Well, I think you're the only one who can tell how good or bad he really feels with or without the meds. And the fact that pretty much about your illness (especially the combination) is not very well understood means that the doctors can only try to do the best without knowing exactly what to do themselves. It also seems that you've gathered lots of the facts yourself. So yes, I think you should have part in the decisions and I trust you that you'll do whatever is the best for yourself in regard to all aspects that are of relevance for you.

[Marwin]

That is that thing what i need atm so damn much Coco.

Thank ya!






Marwin

[Marwin]

The story gets more and more interessting and has just begun.

[}TCP{Carnage]

Bring it on !!!

[Marwin]

LOL Carnage, ok here it comes:

They made again a bone marrow analysis.
I said to the doc, that the life is senseless.

After i had said that, i had to go to the psychiatrist but with escort.....LOL!

The psychiatrist asked me some question and i had to swear that i make no suicide.
He meant that i should take a antidepresiva. I asked him "forcing?", and he said "no not".

In the doctors letter is written with force (i have to take it).

Hmmmm, how can a oncologist be mightier in psychic questions as the psychiatrist himself?


The funny thing of all is, that the psychiatrist is a very right minded human!

And there are really dors without door pull.


Hope this happen not again to me, if I answer with a wrong question then I dont come out for any weeks.




Marwin

[Pitbull]

In all honesty Marwin I think your response is quite normal. You don't need pills. Only friends who support you. Nuff said.

A shot of bourban might not hurt as well.

[Marwin]

A shot of bourban might not hurt as well.

Rofl and true!


Marwin

[Marwin]

Hey peeps, me again!

I started again with taking the medic.
And now after 2 years fighting with the docs, i got my right diagnosis.
With simply words, all what i said was true and all what the docs said was wrong.

I have the t8 from birth or if i ll be exactly before i was born.

I had such big mental issues that it was close to take my own life. The closest one was with the train. I couldnt distinguish between reality and non reality. Only a fortunate coincidence (a incoming phone call) saved me. I had to decide between taking the call and waiting of the train.

Maybe it sounds a bit funny, but i swear that wasnt!


And now i ask me everyday what i should do, because i lost all of my power to do something.
If i work anything, i give up after few minutes....
if i play something i give up after ferw minutes....
if i speak with somebody i cant follow most times what the other said....
and so on....

The docs really destroyed my life with this mistake atm.....and this will take time to heal, but i think there will allways be a scar!
For me are docs nothing more as stupid humans, like we all, there helps also not a academic title or whatever out.

Like Einstein said:

The stupidity of the mankind and the universe are infinite, but at the universe i am not sure........


Marwin



I was right, that also mean the story goes on.....
... with law and order....LOL

[menace]

Marwin good to hear and remember what was we talked about